i hope this doesn't freak out my family

do you ever feel like your life is very small... i do.

i mean i've had the opportunity to do many things, but when it comes down to it, my life is virtually free of any great risk, and sometimes i wonder why.

am i too comfortable with where and what i am?
am i afraid of what risk could signify, afraid of disappointing those i might have to leave behind?

i feel restless and extremely tied down, like a boat tied to the dock while the current is desparately trying to free me.

the question is, am i waiting for my Captain to untie and guide me on a great adventure... or am i refusing to let go of the dock?

i honestly don't know.

i don't really expect any answers. just trying to iron out my own thoughts... and since i don't write in a journal, you all get to partake in my soul searching. take it for what it's worth.