just typing

hanging around school after hours is probably one of my favorite things to do.  most of the kids have left and those who have stuck around are either playing futbol, cleaning classrooms, or just hanging out.  it's laid back and peaceful and i love it.


it's also when i feel like i get the most "connect" time with the kids.  we're able to sit and talk or run through lines for the play or sing songs we've been learning.  it's fun.


i've never been very good in the midst of human chaos.  most anyone who knows me knows that being surrounded my a lot of people will almost always majorly overwhelm me.  (this does not include events like concerts or games... cause those are fun)  it's during these times that i tend to get irritable and snappy.


unfortunately when you're in the business of working at a school with over 200 students human chaos quickly becomes a consistent part of life.  i'm trying to learn to deal with it with grace.  i don't always succeed but it's a learning process.  a process that i'm trying to give myself grace through as well.  something i've never been terribly good at.


but more than anything, this is why after school hours at school are cherished.  the children are few.  the conversation is meaningful... or at least personal.  and i don't feel like i'm doing quite as badly at this whole living-in-africa thing as i usually do.


praise the Lord for moments like these.  



*so i wasn't sure what i was going to write but decided i needed to actually update this thing and writer's block was just going to have to get over itself for tonight.  so i started typing and this was what came out.  take it however you like.